Well, I have put it off long enough!  I am finally making a journal entry on this website.  I am really having trouble with this site.  I put it off for months.  This site was something I really wanted to do to honor my precious Taylor and to offer support to those who have also lost their child to this horrific disease.  I started the site and worked on it for days in a row, then I just kind of went into a depression.  It seemed to bring up a lot of things that I had just suppressed since she died.  So, I have had an aversion to working on it for weeks.  I am slowly trying to pick it up again.  My hope is to find a purpose through working on this site.  I want to find a way to honor Taylor while helping those who are faced or have been faced with having or losing a child with cancer.  It is truly HELL.  I find myself looking for support and wanting to reach out to people who have suffered though this hell.  Well I did it, I made my first entry.  I hope more will follow.  I want to offer up my experience with grief to others that are grieving so they know they are not alone.  I will end with a favorite expression of mine these days:  Cancer sucks!!!! 

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